The Trial

2011-03-11T04:33:00.000-08:00

I recieved some good advice from a writer I met on a game I play. He told me blogging does wonders for your writing skills. Being someone who can't even fill a journal I never thought blogging was for me. Poetry? sure I am pretty good at that. Stories? Alright at them but not the best (I read too many books, I don't have enough ideas that are my own). Writing about my thoughts and daily life? Now that is hard. I do not know what makes one harder than the other I guess I just don't have the talent for things like this. But I have always been open-minded and I usually do what is advised so here I am blogging. I really don't know if anyone is going to even read this, should I even keep writing? oh well, I don't mind if my eyes are the only ones to read these words, at least they are out of me.

A lot has happened lately, some great, some not so good. I haven't let any of my emotions get the best of me, its not like I am trying to prevent them from doing what they need done, its just that ...I feel like I really don't know what I should be feeling...or how I should express it. I have mixed feelings, I am hopeful for my future (taking online schooling/getting a job) but at the same time something is holding me back... and bad things keep happening. My life is spinning around me and I am afraid to move, I don't know how to. Don't get me wrong, I dont have a horrible life, not everything in it is bad or wrong. I have a wonderful family that is there for me and most days I am quite happy if not that then content...but there is something inside me that is fearing what is ahead, I want it gone. I dont want my anxiety holding me back any more than it already has. I want to be free.

Words From Moon

The Trial